It really is about you...

When you learn how to look at yourself as a single being existing amongst several million other single beings, you realize that it really is all about you. You choose your life path and when there are unexpected changes or road-blocks you find a way to go around or adapt. How long can you sit and wait for someone else to tell you what to do... You already know. Change for yourself and don't let anybody else stand in your way. Let go of negative people even when they choose to hang on. When you decide that it's a good time to walk away, just do it and don't look back. Make a decision and stand strong. When you falter at somebdoy else's request you are giving up on yourself. Now, with all of this wisdom, go and be true to you.

Simplicity

Tonight I am comforted by the darkness outside. The rain dripping slowly down the glass window in a jagged pattern, only to disappear. I feel safe within my lonliness, within the confinement of my soul. I am worn out but feel loved and appreciated. It's quiet. The only sound is silence, but tonight it is beautiful. I love days like this where I am content to be alone. To crawl into bed with the new Janis Joplin biography that I bought and curl up sideways to read about somebody else's insanity. I love the comfort of my duvet wrapped tightly around my body, the safety that it brings with its warmth. I wish that I could feel this content every moment of the day. I have always found a certain comfort in crawling into bed on a cold rainy night. Ah, simplicity in all of its twisted forms and complexities. If only this night could last forever...

Dear Unfound Love...

I am raw and real and emotional today
I pine and crave being touched and loved
I am a tornado, a flood of gruesome images
I want to run and hide from the world
I want to be kissed from head to toe with longing
I want to taste you and touch your skin
I want to smell you next to me
I want to feel you breathing and turn to kiss your lips
I want to feel you roll over in your sleep
and slip your arm across my naked waist
I want you to kiss the small of my back
and press your body close to mine
Just for tonight...

Could I find it in me??

If I could be brave for a moment I would...
Scream all of the crazy thoughts in my head
Love freely
Dance naked in the sunshine
Play guitar and sing on stage for a crowd
Sing louder in the shower
Tell my father how much he has hurt me
Tell my mother that I would be honored to grow up to be like her
Tell my brother that I wish we could talk instead of scream
Wear that one outfit that I think is TOO out there
Go to a hair salon and say "do whatever"
Let it be what it is, hands down

Blogging... FINALLY!

Here I sit with a million scattered thoughts in my head... I want nothing more than the chance to share them with you. So here's to new beginnings!