And then.........

My life over the past year has been nothing short of greatness. I have a career, and a good one at that! We bought a new car, moved into a cozy new apartment, and I've been reading the classics! And they are soooooo delicious! I am still very much in love, and looking forward to more great things to come. But alas, I am female, and therefore I am hardwired to want more... more more more! It's never enough. This idealistic life that I am living seems incomplete somehow. It's the mixture of watching everyone around me doing what I long for, and the fact that we are just not ready, that makes me want it so bad that I can taste it! Commitment. Marriage. A family.

It's painful. A dull ache that just never seems to soothe itself... I am impatient and it's driving me crazy.

Can we do it?

Dear self,

Writing is your passion. You live and breathe words. You thrive when you can express yourself through letters, joined at the hip, to create smooth sounds that roll off the lips and into eternity... They become lost, but not before being heard. Please write! Do something good for yourself every single day. This is not a dress rehearsal, this is your life...

I am hoping, praying, leaving it in the hands of the universe, that I can start writing again. No stop-overs, just straight back into it head first.

So here we go... again!